I want to swim through your mind and drown in your every thought. I want to float through the avenues of your brain, to understand the way you are. I want to glide within your veins, to reach your heart. So that one day I can live in your heart. And every beat is beating for me. I want to be the reason for your life, along with everything that you live for.
I am not satisfied with who I am.
Things need to change.
I’ve come to a realization that the people I wanted to befriend, and be admired by before don’t and will not matter to me a few years from now. What’s the point in putting in all this effort to please/appeal to someone who I probably won’t remember, or someone who won’t even remember me when we’re 25? Seriously. There is no point. School is a place to learn, and that’s what I’m there for.
Every now and then of course I’ll make a close friend, and talk to/laugh with them when I’m with/see them around, but other than that I’m just there to learn and to live my high school years. Honestly, I’m just trying to make it to senior year and live a successful life.
Starting now, I’m going to start to:
- Not stress being in a relationship. When the right one comes, he comes.
- Study, pay attention, and do my school work. Grades are important.
There’s so much I’m looking forward to.
- My birthday. (33 more days)
- Me & Morgan’s Sweet 16 party celebration thingy thaang.
- Josh’s Sweet 16.
- Chill hang outs.
- Knowing that it’s almost spring. *cough* Spring Break.